It starts with a flash of intense hot pain, immediately I visualise this as a comet, eye-blinding white heat at its core and a corona of searing acheyness furiously passing beneath my scapula and across my shoulder.
A crunchy awareness of my nerves tingles through the muscle groups in my arm arriving at numbness in three of my fingers and then my arm goes dead.
Week 8 with a trapped nerve beneath my scapula and I can’t get through morning gongyo without meds. My routine is to open eyes, see the ceiling not the window, register surprise that I’m laying on my back, acknowledge the ache and plan my next ten moves. Kitchen, kettle on, Toilet, Bathroom, Kitchen, pour tea, fill hot water bottle, drink two Naproxen and lay back down. Exhale. Pain recedes and I get up for the day.
Some teachers you gel with. It can be rejuvenating to practice with someone new. I liked A’s energy and he did a funny thing giving his monologue for Triangle in Spanish. So it’s all good for the most part although I’ve been contorting my shoulders for most of the class, and he’s shown no interest or concern. Then, when I’m stretching out my scapula, he asks “are you ok”, clearly I’m not and I explain my shoulder thing and his response is for me to put my arm down, it’s better for my heart.
*sigh* i promise not to be so obtuse when I teach. It irritated me because I know what I’m doing and if he’d asked about people and their injuries at the start of class(why doesn’t this happen anymore?) he’d have reassurance that I know what I’m doing and why.
The connection can be so important; in Nichiren Budddhism the concept of mentor & disciple is key to the progression of both student & teacher.
Plummeting temperatures outside, I was glad for the heat today although I wasn’t fully in the mood. Each day is so different it’s what gives doing the same 26 postures every time the potential to breakthrough.
Trying not compete against yesterday’s Me I’m aware when a pose is better today, so many variables affect my performance that the only thing that’s constant is my mental attitude, sometimes the difference between two sets can be huge, I pretty much go hard every time.
I’ve had a painful scapula for a few weeks now, feels like a trapped nerve beneath it and it’s not in a place I can get to by shrugging wriggling or generally contorting my shoulders. It aches in The Room and hurts like hell when I’m trying to get to sleep. I’ve struggled with the Back Bend in Half Moon and been warned off Standing Head To Knee and Half Tortoise by a flash of pain then subsequent ‘dead weight’. Then a late night dance session in the kitchen forced a change, don’t really know how I moved- it was something accidentally chiropractic(was not the Funky Chicken) and I can feel my mobility coming back, yay.
So I’ve been a little restrained, sat a few sets out and yet I’m so hurty! Everything I am doing feels that much stronger even though I’m putting in less effort than usual. Funny that.